What I thought would be the end of a quiet week turned out to be one of those days that is just meant to go bad. No, it wasn’t a total nightmare like the way it was projected. However, it was a little disappointing that despite of being careful and being wary about what to say, somehow and in someway you will still be misunderstood. It is unbelievable how “MIGHT NOT” can automatically mean “NO” to other people. And that “HOLD ON” is a phrase not everyone is willing to take. That maybe, simply giving a person some time can probably solve a question before it becomes a problem. As far as I can remember, I never had any issues taking accountability to errors from my side. If they are my mistakes, why will I let someone be responsible for it? It was and will never be my intention to mislead or provide false information to anyone – specially to a person that I worked hard to please for 6 months to gain just a fraction of her confidence. It will never give me anything in return, nor will it make me feel good as a person. What was said was not even half of what transpired on the conversation. I just couldn’t help but smile sarcastically. All the effort I invested were completely forgotten and now totally gone to waste.

All I am asking is to be given a little benefit of the doubt. For six months, I never ran away from any responsibility. I tried to remain honest and gave straight answers. Today is not an exception. This is a classic case of I-Said, She-Said and it is up to that third person to weigh everything. I might have failed to recount the story when I was asked but it will never change the fact. One of my co-worker said I have to start defending myself, that I have to speak up and say something. For what reason though? Would it be not enough that I tried to correct it but still wasn’t good? Again, I will not waste anybody’s time just to look good. Read the rest of this entry »

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It takes so much for me to get upset, or to even feel extreme dislike for another person because I would never want anyone to despise me the same way. But one thing that most people don’t realize is that I am also capable of getting mad. That behind the smiles and laughter, and my projected naivete, I am just but human like everybody else. I have my own limitations and I acknowledge facts that make me imperfect. And if I will list all my flaws, it will probably be twice more than anybody else’s. And I know that. I am fully aware of that. And that is the reason I imposed one rule upon myself. That is: Keeping quiet when I got nothing good to say. I’ve been doing pretty good at that… and despite of words repeatedly thrown at my face, I still try to be graceful. And no matter how I force myself to slash a come back, I can’t even say something so insulting to degrade even the most evil of all people. I couldn’t. I won’t and I never will.

There is a natural good in every person. But also, let us not forget that there is another side to everyone as well. Read the rest of this entry »

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Oh what, oh what am I going to write tonight? Nothing really comes to mind right now. I am just so tired I suppose. I know it was a short week but I am consciously anticipating the coming workweek as I am again scheduled to do the long hours from 6:30 to 6:00. Just the thought of it takes away all my energy. Yeah, of course the overtime pay is good but it also requires more effort and more hard work. Both I really can’t seem to promise specially I have my own personal obligations to fulfill at home like cooking for dinner, cleaning up and doing other chores. I can probably do the shift three times a week, but five days straight is not something I am looking forward to. Then again who am I to really complain? I know I cannot really say NO as I understand that I have to do this until John gets fully trained to do closing. Adding to that, David is also going on a 2-week vacation starting on the 26th of this month. So yup, we are doomed. I am afraid the schedules are going to change and I have this gut feeling that they will be scheduling me to do closing those days. I hope not. And I guess that is my main concern so I had just to mention about the schedule to Marissa and Jennifer. I want to make it clear that my regular hours start at 6 in the morning… Read the rest of this entry »

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So I guess this is what I will be doing now: Summary Blogging. I can’t really find free time any more to write. I feel so tried after work. And of course as soon as we get home, I also have to do some cooking, cleaning up and fixing Alyssa’s stuff for the next day. I am still online, I just cannot stay long enough to even do something. We are off today because of the Holiday so thanks God for another day of rest. I really need it… This week is a my short days. I can no longer do the long hours because I seriously am so tired. Anyways, here was my half terrific-half worst week in review. Read the rest of this entry »

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