What I thought would be the end of a quiet week turned out to be one of those days that is just meant to go bad. No, it wasn’t a total nightmare like the way it was projected. However, it was a little disappointing that despite of being careful and being wary about what to say, somehow and in someway you will still be misunderstood. It is unbelievable how “MIGHT NOT” can automatically mean “NO” to other people. And that “HOLD ON” is a phrase not everyone is willing to take. That maybe, simply giving a person some time can probably solve a question before it becomes a problem. As far as I can remember, I never had any issues taking accountability to errors from my side. If they are my mistakes, why will I let someone be responsible for it? It was... more
I welcomed the New Year with a big smile on my face. Yesterday, we had a buffet brunch at the Choices in Pala. We stayed there ’till three. And today, we took Alyssa for a late lunch in OC. She loved the noodles! Here are some pics that we took.
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Today is just one of those days when you just want to put on pajamas sleep ’til your heart’s content. Unluckily for me, I am here at work. ‘Been through the cold 5:00 morning expecting a little sunshine just like yesterday. But I guess it will be gloomy and cold today. Everyone is on their coats. I told Jill she looked like a Doctor (and she does) with her lab gown on. She always knows how to stay gorgeous…
Anyways, here I am at the lobby eating some of that delicious homemade cookies from Christina. She is such a sweetheart. DJ sure is very lucky… Alyssa likes her too. Everytime she sees a pretty white girl on TV (well, particularly Christina Applegate on that Married with Children Series), she associates it with Christina. Hmmm… I don’t even know her last name!
I have a lot more to say but my 15 minute break is almost over. ‘Will continue with this blog later.
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On the 24th, I had to work almost the whole shift. I honestly thought we will be leaving around 12, but we ended up staying until 1. But it was just fine. We stopped by the Target and Kohl’s to get some last minute gift and toys. As soon as we got home, I did the wrapping, took a shower and helped Ate Raquel for a little bit. Our Christmas party here in Corona was great. I was so happy to see Jojit and her family (including Rona and Ate Luz). Rolly’s family is a quite big… as I have said, after years of being married with him I still get overwhelmed sometimes – in a good way.
Christmas day, we were so tired so we decided to stay home. On the 26th, we went to watch the Avatar. It was a great movie! Sunday, we went to church then headed to OC to get some stuff at the Ranch Market. Then stopped by the mall to shop. We had a great time…
Tomorrow, we will be back to work. I am starting at 6:30 again. Hopefully, there will not be a lot of traffic because some companies did one week shotdown for the New Year. Judy will be seating with me at 1 tomorrow… I hope I will do good. I always try to make a good impression whenever I can. I feel better that I already started working because at least I am a bit familiar with how the system works.
By the way, here are some photos of Alyssa taken today. We took her to Famous Footwear and got a pair of Osh Kosh boots. She loves them…
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This morning was my last day from MediTech Class. And what I thought to be just another day turned out to be a special one. I was left on the room with the trainer because she wants to show me the changes on the MediTech Layout being used at the Lab. So while we were talking, I mentioned to her I am coming aboard on a temp status. That I am covering for someone on leave until probably March of next year. And she said: “Oh honey, tell me if they don’t offer you the job and I will make sure you get one!” So I kinda look at her to see if she was kidding and I guess she read my mind. So she was like: “I am serious. I can see you have the potential.” And that alone made my day!
Work is where I usually show my capabilities. School… I am pretty much done with it. I went through good grades in Elementary and High School, and though I didn’t get any honors in College I know I’ve proven my self. When I started working, I always make the best of everyday. My first manager (Jennifer Boatman) at VQ offered me a higher position after few weeks of training. Then Kirsten gave me the same opportunity to grow when I worked under her. So as Katherine when I decided to apply as an Account manager for her team. Cannot thank them enough for the learning experience!
Now that I am on another company… a Mission (that’s what they want to be called as they don’t only focus in healthcare but also to the other aspects of community), I hope I will do good. And to hear someone say something great about what they think I can do (without personally knowing me) just humbles me in so many ways…
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I seriously don’t know where to stand anymore. Last night was just so terrible so I decided that’s it. Can’t take it anymore. The problem is that I am always the one they have to ask, and I am always the one who says NO. And whenever I say that, I get the usual reaction. But come on… I was asked to do something before and I did it with no questions whatsoever. All I said was YES to almost everything. So now that I finally got the chance to say NO (JUST on matters that concern my daughter), it is taken against me.
On our way home last night, Rolly suggested we take Alyssa to Toys R Us to see what she wants Santa to get her for Christmas. It was a good plan… I wanted to take her out too because I rarely am with my daughter now that I started working. When we reached home, I was the one who first opened the door to check on her. I told Alyssa to get ready so we will take her out. She started crying… I was then asked if they can take Alyssa shopping with them. So I said: “Hindi rin kami nakabili ng mga regalo Ate kaya kami na lang ang magdadala sa kanya.” And before I even finished it, I got that reaction I couldn’t even put words into. I am sorry to have hurt feelings – again! But it would have been better if I was asked: “May lakad ba kayo ngayon?” Because truly, we really plan on things ahead too.
I was so done.
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Frustrated. Annoyed. A bit mad. Upset. Angered. Tired.
There is just no way to describe it. I don’t even know where to start. I am glad I met Adriana at the Meditech class. I want to think she is Latina (born in here in the US) and married to a Filipino. She’s got two kids. She was telling me a while ago how she needed to pick up some things at the store for Christmas Eve. So I asked her why she is not ordering. She said she will only cook for four, just them because they decided years ago to spend holidays as a family. Reminded me of the Philippines. I mean, it’s true… you go to family Christmas parties anyways. Correct me if I am wrong but isn’t it a good idea to reserve couple of important days (on the calendar year) just meant for the parents and the kids – alone?
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I am having my lunch, the usual sandwich-chips-water combination. This morning during my MediTech Class, I went to get my HepB shot. It is supposed to be a booster shot but I have to go back next month to get the next series if my immune system won’t go up. Tomorrow is half day. I might have to go back to my house floor if my Manager will let me do some work. And Thursday is another half day. Seriously, we haven’t bought presents yet. We’ve been way too busy so Rolly and I are planning on doing that Thursday after work. My, I am not sure how that will go though… it might be a very busy day.
Regarding work, I want to say I am doing good. We just have to wake up an hour early today because Alyssa was having fever and it woke me up. We forced her to take some Tylenol but she ended throwing up so I had to trick her into drinking milk with meds on it. I know it is not a good practice but the situation calls for it. I really feel bad for her because last night, she was telling me she’s sick. I thought she was just kidding, I was wrong. I should have known better though as she was not her usual chatter self and she actually volunteered on going to sleep early… so not her at all! But yeah, she is a little sick and I hope she is better when we get home this afternoon.
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Last Sunday, we spent almost the entire day (after church) in San Juan Capistrano. I took some photos of Alyssa and here they are!
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It really bothers me when Alyssa gets too feisty and quick on being offensive. If only I can set up specific rules on how to handle her tantrums, one of them will be to leave her alone when she starts acting up. Basic knowledge should suggest that the more you annoy tots, the nastier they fight. Pretty basic which a lot of us overlooks. Most of the time, silence is the appropriate tool.
Everyone should agree that parenting is really hard specially when there are so many involved. Speaking of parenting, Rolly and I had a long conversation about the boys. The issue about them was brought out when we were having breakfast. To comment on the matter, Rolly said that PARENTING is NOT a competition between brothers and sisters. The fact is that, no Mom and/or Dad is ever perfect and with that said, it is so unfair to imply that someone else did it better than you, or that you did it better than the other. Because who would ever want their kids go astray on the first place?
The same thing with me. I would never want to compare the way I deal with my daughter to how my brother (and his wife) handle his kids. It doesn’t mean that I care less but his business only worries me when I am invited to join in. I always remember that Family Matter is always a sensitive topic to discuss, and I am not the person that butts in just to say what I have in mind. The same way during conversations, I rarely say something if I don’t have to. I’d rather be quite than to say one hurtful word.
But I am just so proud of Rolly because he always maintain his composure when subjected to things he doesn’t like. Sanayan nga lang ba? That is the question. Just pretend that nothing is being said and yet deep inside hurt? Would it be better to mark your grounds before someone steps on your toe? That’s what I have been doing for the longest time… but patience run out and you reach the tip of the bottle and the slightest of sarcasm would blow you off to pieces? Have you been through that? I allowed myself to play the victim if situation, that is where everything just fell apart.
I hope in the future that Alyssa can make decisions for herself and her family when a situation calls for it. I wish that she would never feel obligated in any way or form. That she will be as far away if she wants, or be as close to home if she chooses to be. I pray for her the freedom to decide on things and at the same time to act accordingly. To be who she is and not just to conform to what is being asked of her…
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People… they sure know how to piss you off. Last Friday, Rolly gave me a card that was sent from Los Angeles (with a zipcode of 91606). It was just so weird… I will take a picture of it when I get a chance tonight. But this person or persons sent out a card to me with this message:
It was also signed… Seriously, no one knows of my address except my cousins in Canada and my Family in the Philippines. I do have some friends from my past jobs but I don’t even get in touch with them except through email. Hmmmm… someone out there has no life I guess. I can be nasty, so curses whoever they are.
Rolly was laughing at me. He would say, take it easy girl. Lol… I would if I only I will be left alone!
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